the air is suffocating with fear and I am
not brave enough to face the thought of living
sacrifice me to the judgement of anyone and any god and I don't care, I go without fear
but to face myself
I cannot do it
this hollow void, this empty mass, black hole with no eyes yet immense sight
I am unworthy I have failed I am nothing and no one and I have no will to beg to try
why I'm so afraid, I don't know
I ask not for mercy nor deliverance, not for forgiveness nor swiftness,
I don't know what to ask for if for anything at all-
if anything at all I want to know
I ask to know
who
and what
and why
(afriad of me, afraid of me)
I try to summon malice
it won't work
I try to summon pity
it won't work
fear are the chains I carry
fear is what I wield
I can't fight it
run
I can't beat it
run
I can't reason
run
I can't understand
RUN