You don't want me at this table

I am quiet
Because I've learned
I don't say what you like
I am met with odd looks
You don't want my silence
But you don't want my conversation
So I lessen my hurt
And I no longer try
You want me at this table
But you don't want me at this table

You want my masked presence
My polite nods
And soft small talk
My fitting in
And falling in
My unreality
Within reality
You want me
When I am easy to explain
Easy to comprehend
Easily palatable

You want me at this table
But you don't want
Me